out of the loop

recently i realized how darn out of the loop i am.

no matter what - i can't get in. and i realize that there is more than 1 loop. but i am just not fitting.

the working class loop: i am changing jobs in 8 days. so i am kind of nowhere. also i get a lot of days off over Christmas - which a lot of people my age don't. (out of the loop - but good)

the gerontology loop: i just live plain to stinkin' far away. add to this that i am married. have my own house. and i am not a student (out of the loop - not good)

the baby loop: does it not seem that everybody is announcing pregnancies, showing off babies, and bearing bellies (out of the loop - but still good - cause my time will come)

the student loop: no exams. no studying. no stress (stress due to exams that is). no school (out of the loop - not bad AT all... except sometimes i miss writing paper.... read- SOMETIMES - partially the reason i have a blog)

and... if you are getting tired of loopies i have one more - a very heartbreaking one more

the whitney girl loop:

in all honesty i should fit pretty well into this loop. i am one of the 4 out of 6 that are married - living with my hubby - and coming to the end (if not already finished) an undergraduate degree.

but - once again i am just to stinkin' far away!!
and i miss them dearly.

Carolyn's birthday was last weekend and there was no seeing her sunday evening after a weekend at home. laying in her SUPER COMFY bed with wet pillows, the smell of stale coffee, and her pile of homework that she would not tackle until at least 4 am.

this christmas season is not accompanied by Lauren & Christina's decorating of the year-round Christmas tree at a higher volume of noise than ever necessary

there is no chocolate peanut butter popcorn and kaitlynn living on the couch in her pj's. Shannon isn't trekking in the door after time with Andy.

there's no broken table smashing into the living room. no christmas pictures. no goodies. no jokes. no inappropriate humour from kirsten.


i realize that this has drifted into really depressing territory and a lot of inside jokes. but i miss them.

like crazy.

1 is in the Phillipines (not for good )
+ 1 is in Hamilon
+ i am in blyth
+ 1 in Chatham
+ 1 in Strathroy/Drayton
+ 1 in London

= i never get to see them

ladies i know that you read this blog. and i am glad that you get a little picture into my life.

but here's thing. i miss you like crazy

i miss my wacky. wonderful. loud. obnoxious. sweet. joking. hyper. sugar-high friends of University.

maybe it's the end of 2010. maybe it's the realization that we ALL haven't been together at 1 time since April. maybe it's the fact that last week i was bombarded by facebook messages about school.... but i've been thinking about you all - ALOT...

... and i have a message for you:
have a very merry wonderful Christ-filled season & here's my one resolution for 2011 ('cause i hate those things and i always fail ... and my personality tends to not like failures)


i am coming to see you. i am showing up on your doorsteps

and you are going to be there

2011 can't be busy yet (its not even here)
get out the planners, the agenda's, the meticulous lists, the sticky notes, or the hoard of notebooks that never get filled

.... it's reunion time.